You know, I don't do anything to occupy my time. My H and I fish (sounds like I'm a tomboy, but I assure you I'm not, I still have very fiminine qualities, I just love the thrill of catching fish, especially the 30 lbs+). So that's what I do. It's not personal time, but I do love to go. Would you suggest that I find outside interests that doesn't include my H? I find that to be dangerous. My first M ended because my former H was always gone with one hobby or another so I don't want to be in that same sitch.
Last night my H's cell phone rang at 1:00 a.m. I looked at the number and it was local so I'm assuming it was the wrong number. And I truly believe that it was. But guess what? That caused my imagination to start running wild and again, I had very little sleep.
My H is doing everything he can to save the M. I feel grateful for that especially since I read some of these posts, but sometimes I just can't help the feeling that our M is a very temporary arrangement. It's just a gut feeling I have and I can't seem to shake it.
