Thanks. I am hanging in there, but I also know that my H is in the middle of a MLC, which also makes it difficult. He believes the best years are behind him and he doesn't have much more to live for. Of course, I told him well you have me and he told me that I would be better off without him. Again, more work on my part. Not only do I have to overcome his infidelity, I have to encourage him to press on.
So you have moments of "revenge the A" I cannot tell you how many times I want to do that. Fortunately the bimbo moved across the country so she is definately out of the picture, but she does know my H e-mail address at work and there would be no way of me knowing if they are still in touch with one another and that's another thing that I have to fight myself on. Occassionly, I will ask H if he's heard from her and he says No - why would he? But I face all of with my faith in God that He will reveal to me anything that I need to know.
Intimacy, yeah that's another thing. I know that I don't look at my H the same way and I'm sure that he doesn't see me the same way. It is by far the most hurtful thing that I've ever been through and I pray that it will all be worth it.
Thanks for your posts. You are helping me to stay the course.
