Hello all. I don't post much but today I need a little help, encouragement or words of wisdom.
Everything is going very well with me and H. We laugh, we joke, we enjoy each other's company, he's doing everything he can do to win my trust. So what's my problem, right? Well, I have yet to get a good night's sleep. I wake up continually during the night, second guessing myself. I wake up thinking about his A and think about it several times during the day. I don't talk about it to anyone, not even my H, I try to deal with this alone. I have almost come to the conclusion that I am one of those people who will not be able to overcome this. And there are those out there. Our M is good, I love my H, but because I held his morals to such a high standard and he disappointed me so greatly, I may not be able to move one with him. I try to think life without him, it sucks and I try to think of my life with him and continue to battle myself and that sucks too. So what do you do?
Thanks for any advise out there.
Oh, Cat03, as far as how long did it take for my H to say ILY, the very second I found out and he never quits. I believe he truely loves me. Thats the irony of it all, he loves me but yet he put me through hell.
