I'm grateful that I am helping. So many wonderful people helped me to get where I am today that I'm glad that I can return to some of you my victories.
Remember, love is patient, kind and keeps no records of wrongdoings. With that said, you H will never find peace within himself until he repents and then he can get where you are. I believe for now, your job is to be patient. Don't get real heavy in relationship talk, actions speak louder than words. You change! Put the past behind you and make changes within yourself that you are not happy with. IMHO, when you're happy with yourself you radiate happiness on others. It's contagious.
It's all very, very hard. I'll admit that. I have to get up every morning reminding myself that I will not go down the road of misery today. What for? Does it change anything? Does it make me happy? Does it show that I am a strong person? Heck no. Well guess what? I can't change the past, but I can change my future. I want to be happy and I AM a strong person. So daily I decide to radiate those qualities!
We all can survive without our significant other - we just choose not to! So okay, let's choose to get the job done. Marriage is hard work. Being once divorced already, I can tell you being married is harder than being single. But I love being married so dang it, I have chosen to work hard at my marriage, just like my day time job, because at the end of the day, I feel like it's a job well done.
Keep on showing your love. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. I believe that sums it up. "always hopes, always perserves." So to love and to show it, I believe this is what you need to practice.
One more thing I would like to add and that's the prayer of serenity. I say this to myself often.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.
