Gwyn, my H had an EA and now and then I still remember, I used to think about it constantly and it drove me mad, just recently I stopped looking through his stuff, that's how bad I was feeling. I hope you are able to let that monkey off your back, it does feel awful but I pray you feel free of those feelings soon.
Preg&DB'ng- I still can't let go of the issues I have with my MIL either, I know I should forgive her too, it is just not the same, I can' act the way I used to with her (well, to begin with we weren't best friends either) But I do try my darnest to be civil and nice for the kids, they really like her.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
