The real friends will tell you that you should pursue what makes "you" happy. If your spouse makes you happy, it isn't anyone's business. I believe the pain will always be there, but I think it will only be a sting, rather than an open wound when you decide that you don't want to hurt any more. It is a battlefield of our minds. IMHO, because I have chosen to forgive, I can now work on it. Before now, I wanted to forgive, but just couldn't bring my self to do it. I wanted my H to pay! Not any more, he's suffered enough. He is the one who has to carry this cross and I know it's heavy....
