Matilda - Good to hear from you! I had been wondering how things were going for you! I know exactly how you feel about the making love. I did have those same feeling you are experiencing at first but I tried to never let it interfere with the love making. I still every now and then look at H and think about how he did things to and with this XOW but I don't do that as much. You remember though that it has been a year since I found out about the A. My H and I had stopped all the romantic little things before he started the A and now we are doing them again. I too had a problem with the emails (he even sent her e-cards!). He is doing that for me now and I just try to forget that he did it for her. We also spent out 33rd anniversay where he met the XOW and we even went to the club where they met. I didn't have bad feelings about the place. I feel like we were making new and happier memories there. Now when I think about the place I think about us and not her! There were times when I thought I'd never be able to think about the A without crying and feeling sick to my stomach but over the months it has gotten so much better. I can actually think about it and not cry sometimes and I find that I don't think about it nearly as often. I hope that you will find as I have that in time the pain does lessen and life really does look happier and brighter!! GOOD LUCK and I hope you have a really special anniversary!! Let us know how things are going!! Pfroglady
