thank you all so much. I am trying. sometimes he seems ok then others, so distant. It is hard, I feel like it is all about him, forget the fact that he cheated on me. It makes me angry and hurt. Somethings he does make it seem as if he wants to stay and others dont. I am trying not to read anything into anything he does right now. I am losing the weight for myself. It makes me feel better and in control of something in my life. Why do I have to love him so much? He cheated on me, he lies, he acts like he wants me to tell him to leave and go back to her, says he will get used to being in a sad mood all the time, he isnt such a prize is he?
