Sunday, I asked W if the proposed motorcycle was for her exclusive use. This opened a whole can of worms about her “right to have things of her own.” She said that she saved the money on her own, and that if I want a bike, I should save my money. She also said that she doesn’t think it’s right that I take the bike course now. I should save my money. All I could think was “Yes, you saved enough money to buy a good helmet. What about the bike, insurance, shed that we’ll have to build, leather… ca-ching!”
I said that she saved money w/o telling me, and decided to make a major purchase w/o consulting me. From her point of view, she lucked out by already having her license, and why shouldn’t she now use the money for a bike. She retracted her “pleasant surprise.” Guess she felt that nothing’s changed. She also said that she felt that I was waiting for her to change, and that it won’t happen. She also stated that this was just another example of me hiding my feelings.
Last night, she told me that I should take the course whenever I want.
Huh?
She said that she was just being selfish when she said I should wait.
Y’know? I think that – in a sense – I am waiting for her to change, but not in the way she thinks. I also think that, despite what she said, she is changing. She’s starting to consider my POV.
But, the whole bike-course thing may be moot anyway. My practice lead at work is trying to get me back on the infamous project from hell (sigh)
