I’ve told so many people that time is on their side, I feel like a hypocrite when I feel as low as I do today.
But, like I told you in my last post, W is very distant. Sure, we make small talk. There’s no hostility or anything. She just has no affection, and when I kiss her, she looks like she’s been fed worms.
She’s very tired lately. When she’s like that, she just wants space. Of course that’s only natural. I know that. But it seems like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. She chalks her fatigue up to the time of year. I tend to think it’s adrenal exhaustion. If I’m right, then we’ll never get out of it.
Been reading more of W’s book. Seems like the basic premise is that perimenopause isn’t so bad unless you’re carrying emotional baggage into it. The emotional baggage is invariably caused by the H. the book also stresses that a woman has to deal with the anger against her H by following her “true” feelings. If the H can’t accept that, then maybe it’s time to end the poisonous M.
I hope W doesn’t buy all of it. I think there’s some merit to what she says, but I still can’t accept that this way of thinking is innate wisdom. I hope the tone of the book changes too. Putting the anti-male rhetoric aside, there’s a lot of good stuff in there.
