ANS, please don't take this as my being rude, but I'm wondering if maybe you'd be happier with your R if you didn't analyze everything quite so much. What do you think? Please don't take this as a critisism as I tend to do this myself. I think one can drive oneself crazy trying to figure out what is going on in their spouse's mind. My H has no clue himself, so why should I drive myself crazy? Maybe this doesn't apply in your case.Just a thought...Hope I didn't offend you.