How about this, R8? When you were married 11+ years ago, you entered into married life like everyone else... Blind!
How's that for a recipe for failure!
But, after spending 17+ months of discovering how not to have an R, you've got the opportunity to start over and get it right this time.
When I became aware of my R problems, my step-mom told me that she didn't know of any R worth it's salt that didn't go through a crisis. She's a very wise lady!
I think that these kinds of crises are immense learning opportunities. If we get past the crisis stage, we and our spouses can use the lessons learned to make our M a true success.
The hardest part is to forget the past without forgetting the lessons from the past.
BTW, it was nice chatting with you. Gotta do it again sometime.