H and I have been working on “piecing our marriage back together” for quite some time. We’ve got all the pieces face-up, and the edge pieces are all in place. But some of the pieces don’t seem to fit anywhere. I’m beginning to think our marriage puzzle is missing a few pieces. Maybe we lost them somewhere along the way. Does anyone have a picture of what this pieced-back-together puzzle should look like?
Some of you may remember me from Newcomers. It’s a long story (one I don’t have the energy, or desire, to recap here…*smile*… ) Anyway, suffice it to say, after 17 months of separation (and nearly a year after finding this site), H and I are recovering from what was, surely, (for better or worse), the “worst” of times…
Having said that, this “piecing” business is harder than I thought it would be. In a perfect world, the pieces would have all quickly fit back together. But I seem to be stalling for some reason. And I feel a bit like H is getting anxious and impatient for “things to get back to normal”. Maybe I’m just getting “cold feet” or “Pre-Re-Wedding” jitters….lol….H wants to renew our vows in the Spring, (on our 12th anniversary) but he’s very anxious to move back home NOW. I’m still reluctant…somebody tell me I’m not a freak.
We’ve been back together as a couple since early May, but still maintaining separate houses. It works for me, although it is expensive and not very convenient at times. H and I get along great...we talk a lot, and have a wonderful time together.
So what’s keeping me from throwing open the front door and welcoming H (and all his belongings) in with open arms? I thought that was what I wanted, afterall. And I do still want him back in the house..…just not sure when. I'm an expert at "slowlee slowlee"...my H never heard of it...*smile*...thanks for listening...R8
