well well long time and no post. A weird thing happened to me yesterday that makes me realize I am not quite as together as I had thought!

H has been working on a special project at work with other folks of course. There is a group of them. He brought home some paperwork and I saw that the EA is one of the members of the group along with the other woman who is his "confidante. " This confidante was told about his feelings for EA. The absolute freaky feeling I had at seeing BOTH women's names next to my H's as part of the work group made me see this streak of green that I haven't felt for awhile now.

I think many of my emotions are wrapped up in stuff since the death of my mom, but that would be fodder for the therapist I guess.

So here's my big question. After the project is complete - tomorrow - the bunch of them are planning a dinner out to reward themselves. I have a real problem with H going out on personal time for dinner with this small cast of characters which inludes his "confidante female friend" and his EA the GenXer gril who is not aware of his fantasy feelings. I am absolute sick about it. This really surprised me!

No doubt the dinner will happen while I am out of town on business as well as this seems to be my H's usual MO as well.

Work is work and project teams have to happen but does it have to include the post work partying that I am really freaking over. The entire group is small - five others plus H and two who are his "special" friends.

If this were any of you would you ask your Spouse to not go to this social event that is after work hours? And would you explain why you felt this way? YIKES sounds to me like an OR is coming on because of this. I SHUDDER!

I am debating about how best to deal with this one. I haven't been to the C in months now, and figure if I do go it's going to be another marathon session that I am not ready for as yet. The absolute high end emotion I am feeling has me just completely FREAKED these past two days!

so whaddya all say? and think?
thanks
Tree
slightly nutbar, but going in for manicure, pedicure and haircut to deal with things for now!