So here's the thing... it's those little comments that make we wonder WTF is going on in his head and we MUST be headed for "together forever land" but ... like... will he tell me directly? I am probably doing ALL those things I tell others not to do... but ah well..
One day we were talking about work and H mentions how nice it would be to go work in another country. I say "Let's do it before kids don't want to go. It would be great for them too." H says... "forget the kids... they'll be long gone to university when we head out of here..."
ok... just the two of us... interesting...
Then a day or two ago... We were having a barf-fest in the house ... kids are sick upchucking. I have bad gag reflex I don't clean up... that's a dad job. So oldest one has puked all over bathroom floor, H is not home, I try to tidy up and end up running out of the bathroom next to puking myself. H comes home, I sheepishly admit to leaving clean up to him ( truly I can't do it!) and he says ... "Ya know darlin this just doesn't bode well for my old age does it!"
Now... I nearly zinged him by saing I'd trade him in on a younger model long before he got to that state... and bit my tongue realzing what bad DB it is and HOW that's nearly what he did to me. SO I just shot back.. PAID HELP from the old age security cheques will do barf brigade . He kind of snickers and goes away in disgust to clean up the yuck. Whatta guy!
H mentions he wants to see the Time Machine... ok... how about tomorrow night. He doesn't answer, but I can tell he's thinking about it. Much depends on the state of barf at the house I guess...
It's these pathetic little things that we think are messages... ARE they?
I am going to visit my very ill mom this weekend, then another week away on business. H sighs... he likes my mom I think most days, and is in big denial about both our moms and their state of health. His mom is 10 years older than mine too. Keep working on these positives even though for the most part... there is no real showing of feelings or emotions.
