Treesa, got any spring water or coffee, I'm thirsty!
Me2. I don't know where my H got his ideas about what happens when one party asks for a D. I work at home and I get the idea that out there in the world there is a very Divorce Friendly Faction that must get together and talk about the bombs they've dropped or plan to drop. From the beginning I have NOT reacted the way he had it figured. While we were in critical mode he rode guard on me to make sure I was okay. The first day I was alone I fell apart (you try watching8 kids and go through this mess). I swore to myself that I would go through this w dignity, strength and competence. (C told me I was one classy lady). I never let him see me at my weakest or angriest or scardiest. We had some really good foundation talks. Then I encountered the cell bill terror. I called her H and found out some stuff. I was a bowl of jello when I came to the bb but H never knew. As time past,the DBers on the bb coached me and I made myself stop my ILYs and I don't call him on the phone to chat. If I had a question that would help me get off the emotional rollercoaster faster I would ask him . There were a few times when I overstepped and got burned but sometimes the truth hurts. When I realized he'd been dumped I also figured out that he was also probably MLC so it was natural to just back off and be supportive and not intrusive. He is just lately beginning to relax and seem to accept that my forgiveness and acceptance is for reals. Which makes it ripe for him to bring up OR. Mind you I refuse to ask if he's starting to care etc.
What is sweet to me is that I am seeing the old me bloom again. Our dance of conflict through the years was so inhibiting of the girl he was smitten with so many years ago. Would you believe that in H.S. I was voted Best Personality 2 years in a row? My compassion and nonjudgement is surfacing again and there are times when I feel bubbly. This just can't be due to my thyroid meds being balanced either. Naw. The man is curious. . . SLOWLEE SLOWLEE CATCHEE MONKEE.
