I guess I NEED a “super glue” to piece my marriage back together and I also NEED a “red hot pepper” to spice it up, but how. Our relationship is moving but sloooooowwwwwwly.
Like I said before, the goodnight hug is still on, but that was it, no more and no less. Well, there was a tiny plus on top of this. Why? For the first time in 11 years (that’s right YEARS), my wife agreed (allowed) letting me spend a night sleeping next to her in the same bed last Friday. Of course, that didn’t last all night, but only for two hours. Her excuse was I snored a little and that bothered her. So she got up and slept on the couch and I decided to move back to my room. When I asked to try again second night, she said once a week on Friday night for now.
This has nothing to do with having intimacy. During that two hours, none of my body touched her body at all. All I wanted was to be able to sleep next to her for a change. It was silly to think about, wasn’t it? A husband and wife sleep next to each other in the same bed should be a given, not in my case for the past 11 years.
That’s the disappointed part of my life so far. I guess she probably felt invaded by my present there. After all these years, I guess she thought that was her “spot” and when I joined in, it was like an invasion.
That’s where I think I might have to GIVE UP on this marriage.
