Hi Dove. Michele doesn't usually drop into the forums much, but there are many people here who are helpful. I don't think she's written the book about higher drive wives. Not yet, anyway.
Sorry you are so sad. There are no quick fixes, but hang around here and tell us more about yourself, maybe read some other threads, and I think you'll learn some things about your situation and yourself.
One thing that jumps out at me is that you two have been through a real wringer and could probably benefit from MC (marriage counseling). Have you tried it before?