Well, it's another day. Last night was OK - we got an AC installed and cooked dinner together. It went alright - but my W's mood was really on edge. She has been so angry with me recently, it's almost like we can hardly interact without her putting up a wall and berating me. I'm sure that a good deal of it is due to her guilt and frustration with the situation, but I can't help feeling like the person that I am to her right now is contributing to this. She recently told me that she felt I was in denial about what is going on between us, to which I responded that I was aware of how she felt, but that we had agreed that we wouldn't allow this to make or break us (something she said while she was trying to manipulate me into "letting" her go to see my cousin). She also doesn't trust me and I have no doubt that she's afraid of me, and I think she's angry about that. I know that I shouldn't concern myself with how she is feeling because I can't change it, but I think I might be able to aleviate some of the mistrust. I need to have a heart to heart with her to let her know that I don't want to make things any worse, and that I'm not going to create more drama - because I'd rather have a nice time with her and be more comfortable. This constant venom is really making it difficult to ensure good interaction. Does this sound like a bad idea? I don't want to flounder, or sound wishy-washy, but I also don't want to cause more undue strife.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
