OMG... thanks all of you... GEL, Brian, HD and Lou...
To answer some questions... Yes... H denies having A... (after confronted with phone call) he says that OW/s are 'just friends'. He says that he was going to take a friend 'shooting' to teach her how to handle her gun since she lives alone now. Now... this is the same OW (divorced now) that was actively pursuing him not 7 months ago and he promised me that he had not talked to since last Jan/Feb. after she made her feelings known. Lies, lies, lies!
When he had his A 17 years ago, he SWORE to me that he would never do that to me again... and he says that he has not. I do believe that he has not had sex with anyone else... yet. But he HAS (obviously) been keeping in contact with these OW that ARE pursuing him. (Strokes his ego don't you know)
Also. I am not the one wanting the D... he is. (Still me... with this pathetic hope... GOD!) This makes the 5 time he has decided that he wants a D. And he's pushing kind of hard. Maybe he's afraid he'll change his mind... again. I don't know though. Even if he does... I think I've had it. I'm pretty much broken down as far as I can go. (Never in front of him anymore. I NEVER let him see me cry.)
GEL... I know what you mean about gaslighting... and I feel like that there is things that he is not telling me... BUT... when he had his A before... he DID admit it within a week, without proof. I don't understand why? Why stay with me, stringing me along, if he wants THEM???
