Andy,

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Ironic. W complained that I was controlling. I now have no control over my life.

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Sure you do Andy. You have control over the obsessive thought about your W and R if you choose to. Try something different on this trip. Make up your mind that it will be fun and that you will not obsess about W. Make it happen.

You have a whole lot of stuff you have control over. Stop giving control to her. This is the same thing she did for years. Now you know how it feels.

Take control of your happiness and stop waiting for W to return to who she was. Let her live her own nightmare.

Don't head back into the gutter bud. We both know that depression is not a solution to anything. It is hopelessness. It is a sign that a change is needed.

Now what is that change gonna be?

K