GH Saga, Part, well, too many to count.

[PArob]

GH,

First off....lets dispel this little nasty remark right now...

My biggest fear right now is that I HAVE NOT CHANGED as much as I think I have and that I am still the same P/A controlling, angry man I was a year ago...damn

This is simply not true. You know it, your W knows it. Having the concerns that you have right now is completely justified and, well, upsetting. I know exactly what you mean here. If this would have happened back when you knew the A was occurring, then it would have been one thing. But you two have basically come to terms with that and you both have committed to having an open and honest relationship.

Here's my opinion, for what its worth. Obviously, this whole ordeal has upset you. Now, there may be a valid excuse for why she didn't answer her phone, etc...but the fact is, you have been bothered by it. If you try to hide it, you know for a fact that your W WILL sense it. No doubt. She has told you before that she would rather have you come to her with your concerns rather than trying to bottle them up. Why would you think of doing that now? Calmly and rationally explain to her what your problem is, what you feared, etc. Give her a chance to explain and address it.

The point being, be direct, open and honest with her. Its what she has told you in the past that she wants you to be.