I in NO way feel my marriage is over. I think, judging where we were, or have been in our marriage, this thing we are building (and I am speaking for myself) IS new, and IS different enough to lead to the more passionate, fulfilling relationship that we BOTH want. I KNOW I am making progress and actually see my lack of patience, something I see OT as actually encouraging for some reason, as my greatest danger.
I have waited this long, and seen progress all the while, I am not about to rush into something just for the sake of, well, for the sake of being impatient.
I just wish, as do ALL of us that are lucky enough to get to this point in our sitches, that my W would start reciprocating but then again, I know from reading what I have read, and observing many other people's sitches, that these things can take time, much more time than I have given it to this point.
Look, I have NO doubt that my W's intentions are good. I know she wants to find a way back into a meaningful R with me and continue our marriage. She has not said or done ONE thing since committing to that that would make me doubt her on that. In this respect, I think I am in a really good place in my sitch. Unlike some others, my W has not wavered or seemed confused at all about what she wants, it's just the doing part that she is struggling with.
I think it will be up to me to help get that "doing" part on track and as I said to OT, I WILL do that and sooner than later.
I am willing to take the risks, which the changes I have implemented in my life so far, are to me already. I will take more, and bigger ones because I DO want to save my marriage and I know the work is not done yet by a LONG shot.
