Quote: I know this sounds like I am some sort of freak, but there are other ways that we can make ourselves feel good ,ya know what I mean?
Do I ever...lol.
I agree with you that pressure may not be a good thing, most of the time. Then there are times like the past few days when everything SEEMS ripe for SOMETHING to happen and she still pulls back when I get too close.
Part of me even wonders if the OM is still in the picture. I almost KNOW he's not but it's just confounding that everything else could seem SO normal but when it comes to physical expressions of love, nil, nada, nothing.
It is a brand of frustration I should be used to as I have suffered it all my marriage but that's where DB is a double edged sword. I have now learned to want more for myself and value myself enough to think I deserve more. Problem is I am not yet in a situation where I am likely to GET more, at least right now.
So, I go take more pictures...maybe some abstract ones that are full of angst and tension...like me, lol.
