Well, here's the lastest. I found out the Ex is still seeing FUG..............my daughter told me because he told her. He said his therapist told him to be honest with me. He also told him he wanted his cake and eat it too. lol
I know some of you won't understand this, but I just can't do it anymore. Even though my head was telling me I should, my heart was telling me I couldn't.
He understood...........but really didn't want me saying that. He says he's still trying to figure out why he never closed the door on us, and I told him, I really understood, but I couldn't continue to see him if he was still seeing her, and not putting a 100% into working on us. And that I WAS closing the door.
I told him I truly understood what he was going through but that it didn't take away the pain. And that if in the future he wanted to try and he could honestly say she was gone, gone for good. Maybe then.
So now I will be going back to Surviving, my home away from home. lol I'm ok, I really am. Once again not in Limbo Land, although once again hurt, this time it's not anything like the first.
P.S. Hey Barb, you said I deserve a medal, I think I deserve to be committed! lol
