Hey, first off Cristina I've gotten both your messages and you didn't leave your number and if we exchanged numbers when we saw each other I lost it. lol Next time leave your number and I will call you back.
DNO, I've thought about calling you often just havent gotten the time.............but I will.
Ex is moving out of FUG's next Tuesday, he will be staying at my house for a week, while I am gone. I'm going to California with my mom. When I get back he is moving into a hotel..................for how long, we have no idea.
He wants to come home, he wants his family back, he said he was so depressed when he left he wasn't himself, and now knows whats really important in life. Says he will do anything to prove it to me. Says he'll go to counseling, says he will reassure me all the time. Says I will never have to worry about the O/W. Says he has never stopped loving me. Says I know him better then he even knew himself then and now he sees things so much clearer. He is on medication. He says all the right things, now I'm watching he actions, and so far he is finally taking some.
I still have my expectations low, I'm still alittle apprehensive, but I truly believe he has finally come out of where ever the place he was, and is truly sincere and I think has finally gotten the strength to do what he says.
Says he has wanted to come home since about a year after he left, just didn't see how to do it. Felt like 3 different people in his mind.
What do I do...............I just listen, and watch, I try to remember all the things I learned from Michelle's books and from this board. I stay calm, I reassure myself I will survive no matter what, I have proven that.
Funny thing is, I have always felt we would some day be back together, probably because from the very beginning he always said things to me that made me feel that. Always crying, always remorseful, asking me if we could date.
What a journey, what a trip!!! I know it's not over yet, but I am looking forward to getting to know each other again and having my family back together.
Speaking of family, that's going to be a trip in itself when they all find out, lol, but I'm sure they will all come around and be supportive, they always have been.
So anyway, that's what's been happening!! Unbelievable huh, well, I leave for California, Tuesday the 11th, I'll be back on the 18th............and then another part of my journey will start beginning...............looking forward to it being a hell of alot more fun then the first part.
Wish me luck..............please continue to pray for me, and rest assure you both are in my prayers too.
