and boy am I alittle scared. I have been on the Surviving thread for 5 years. I was married to my Ex for 20 years together 25. He's living with the O/W but says he's not happy and wants to talk about getting back together. This has happened before.............and he's never been able to leave because he says he can't live by himself.
Anyway to make a real long story short, Tuesday he wants to talk. At first I was excited and things seem to be different so I was thinking maybe this time he will really step up to the plate. But now the more I think about it the more I'm thinking he's not going to be able to do want I need him to do.
I need him to move out of there, I need him to tell me he only wants me and he's sorry for everything he's done. I need him to be a man and have the strength to do whatever it takes. I need to believe him.
I need you people to tell me I'm right!! I know they say not to have any expectations.......and I some what don't. But once again I think I'm going to be dissappointed.
I'm smart, I'm intelligent, I have my act together.....but my heart has still not caught up with my brain. Why do I still have faith in this man? Why?
I jumped over to this thread because in a way I am trying to pierce this back together...............and I think this might be the beginning. But I'm afraid if he doesn't do those things that I have mentioned..........it will be a deal breaker to me and no returning back.
Just need some support and someone telling me I'm not crazy. lol
