I'm reading it Eric, as I'm sure many others will. Keep writing, it's good for you. I usually keep notes in my Franklin Planner, I at least keep track of what happens day to day even if it's w/o my W, as I haven't had more than a handful's worth of contact w/ her in 2 months. We don't have any kids so I always seem to notice when people have kids they seem to usually stay in the house or maintain much more contact, for obvious reasons. I only have a doggie that she took that I miss dearly, but the courts won't see it the same as kiddies. But keep the journal going! And keep up the DB techniques, they do work much more than looking needy and desperate, which we all can't always help preventing...