I have two kids (4 and 2) and they do keep me very busy!! I do keep telling myself that he is with me and that is what counts. I guess what I really want is for him to tell me that he never really enjoyed his time away and that he thought about me all the time. I know I'm dreaming.
We have talked a little about things. He swears that there was no OW until he had moved out and that she was just something to do. When he was gone he was good about money and kids.
I guess one big thing with him that seemed to wake him up is he found out I was dating someone (not really dating, couple drinks and alot of talking - NO SEX) he told someone that it hurt him very much to think that he could be replaced so easily and he told me the reason he was gone so long was because it looked like I was moving on and getting along OK without him. When he actually came home he came over one Sunday when kids were with my friend and we talked. He asked me what I wanted to do about D and I told him that it was all up to him, he knew how I felt and did not want D. That's when he started saying how he missed me and wanted to be with us. We talked for a long time and he said he wanted to move home - he then had to tell HER that he was coming home. After he returned, things were awkward for a while ( I did get used to not having him around) but things progressed pretty well. But sinse that time we have not really talked about it, I have told him I am glad to have him home and when he had to go out of town for my birthday he was upset and I said well at least this year you want to be with me.
I guess I am rambling alot, trying to give you bits and pieces to make sense of all of this. To be honest, I'm not sure what I want, I think it is just reassurance from him.
