Hey, just checkin up on ya. How are things going? If you looked on my posts, you'd find out that my H found this website with my posts, I don't know how, cause I swear I exited out, but it must not have worked and he was able to click right on it.
well, I hope things are getting better for you and not worse. Let us know how you are doing.
Crissy
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Not really sure where things are at right now. We haven't discussed the R since before we went to court. I have told her that I'm not sure I want it to continue because I've caught her in a couple lies and now I'm not sure I can trust her. I haven't posted on my sitch because sometimes I feel like updating it constantly has kept me focused on her and not on myself. I've been going out a bit more. Bought some new clothes, spoiled the kids a bit and got a new tattoo. My brother is home on leave from the Navy so this weekend we are having a picnic and I've got a grad party to go to. So basically I'm still trying to focus on me and not worry about her. I believe that the sitch will work out the way it's supposed to.
Quote: I haven't posted on my sitch because sometimes I feel like updating it constantly has kept me focused on her and not on myself.
I totally agree with you on this one. My main reason for using this is first for help, and second to just let it out. It's kinda like a journal for me, but guess I can't really do it anymore since H found it. oh well.
Glad to hear your doing well- I've even thought about the tattoo thing too. had wanted one a long time ago, but opted for the belly ring. My H got a tattoo during all this. I swear he's in an MLC, but who knows.
oh in regards to her lies. My H is still lying to me. I told him I know there are still lies, and that he can't hurt me anymore and when he's ready to be truthful I will listen. Of course I may never know the whole truth.
I remember reading, when the WOS (walkoutspouse?) is in the middle of whatever they're going thru, you can only really believe half of what they say. I think I read that in the DB book?
Good Luck to you!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
I'm kinda at the point where I don't want to actively DB. I just want some stability in my life right now. I now know that my job will close probably by mid-october, so I want to get that behind me. I need to register for my fall classes and I want to spend time with the kids and spoil myself a bit this summer. THat is all I'm really focusing on now. No more chasing W...if she wants me she knows where I am(part of the time...went dark remember).
