Chrissy thank you so much for your kind words,a nd keeping me in your prayers. I really don't know what to do with myself now. I am so depressed, as I sit here I'm fighting back tears. I keep asking my self "how did we get here?" In feruary we took our last family trip to Disney, we ahd agreed to seperate before then and still take the trip. The trip went pretty well we got along, even ML at one point. There was no anger or hostility...today that's all there is. I am not mad at my W, I am just so frustrated. I knwo the goal is to focus on ones self. But I can only think of her. Ilove her and miss her so much. Things have gotten so far out of hand. I kow DBing is supposed to focus on improving me with no expextations about the R, but aren't we all really doing it in hopes of repairing the R. I mean if our marriages hadn't fallen apart why would we be here, and would we have ever tried to improve ourselves.
The sitch now is turing ugly, I see us headed down an ugly road I do not want to go down. My W has already spoken with family court/services. I have an appoinment on ntuesday to see a lawyer. If we do D I am going to fight for the kids, I don't want to have to do that. I don't wnat to bring up dirt and hurt my wife. Does anyone have any suggestions how I can tone this down.
One of the major things I won't budge on is I don't want OM around my kids. Should I bite the bullet on this one or stand firm. I've tried to explain that she shouldn't have introduced him to them at this point. She thiunks it's harmless. Should I just let it go. I'vce told her I won't pay for the house as long as he spends so much time there, should I ease up on that? I don't want to fight but I feel like I'm being taken advantage of. Any suggestions?
