I just had something happen that makes me smile...
It's one of those good thing bad thing things... I had an unbearable urge to snoop. In the most recent past (last snoop was in January), I snooped to "catch her doing it right". I figured snooping would show me that my fears were unfounded and that she was as trustworthy as I hoped she'd be. Well, I found I was wrong, I found evidence of lies and meetings with OM, and that most of the fears I had were totally founded. I felt like the lowest of the low, like I couldn't go on. I found that the only way I would be able to keep a PMA was to stop snooping.
So, as I've said before, it's like an addiction. I eats at you, it pulls you. You feel down, you want to snoop. So I did. I snooped in her 2 "secret" Hotmail accounts. She knew I knew about one, but from what I could tell, only she and OM knew of the other. I've been squirrelly, and I felt down, and I wanted to know what's really up with OM, so I snooped. And I got messages from both accounts saying that they had been shutdown from lack of activity. Finally, I think I've caught her doing something right through my snooping...
Not that I'm going to do anymore. Just thought I'd come clean here. Now you can all admonish me. Mea culpa.
