Was never abused or anything like that. My parents were divored when I was 12 and I had to fend for myself, with my 3 siblings, from then on. We obviously had contact with the parents but my mother lived a couple of miles away and my father left for work at 3am every day, so I had to get my self up, go to school, etc. Cooked a lot of dinners for my younger brother and I and one older sister; yes at 12 years old. So I'm used to handling problems by myself. Not always a good idea. When I say "can't think of touching them" I'm not sure what to say here. I just have no interest. Until I got married, most of the sex I had was under the influence. I'm not a drunk! We would go to dinner, have some drinks and wind up at my house. But then I got married and almost stop drinking and; I don't know. I can't be the only one this has happended to! I still like or love the person, but don't want that intimacy with them. At those moments, I would rather have meaningless sex with someone I'm attracted to but don't really know. If that makes sense. Maybe it's an intimacy thing. Probably once I got into it I would love it, but I'm having trouble getting past the first part. Who knew I was so screwed up!! Did I answer all the questions?
