I'm editing my post from yesterday, because it seemed so disjointed. [Big Grin]

We're at the 4 week mark- I was jumping out of my skin a little over the weekend, not trusting the good times we've been having, backsliding a bit. I was feeling very down on myself for that yesterday, but I've figured out the best thing is to not dwell on the backslides and just get back on the horse.

H left for a week long business trip yesterday. He asked me to take him to the airport, and he kept making eye contact, smiling, hugging me. He gave me his full itinerary printout and will call when he can.

I had a movie moment in the airport after I said goodbye to him- kind of funny or weird. I remembered how much airports have to do with his R with ex-ow. He had to travel to see her, pick her up there when she came here, she met him on business trips, etc... For a second, as I thought about this, I felt as though she was about to come off the plane and got a little panicky. I decided to go back to see him in the lineup - but he came out of line, I explained what I was feeling and he gave me another hug. He told me he wouldn't be calling her and isn't in contact with her. I told him he didn't have to explain anymore, that his understanding really helped. And it did.

It actually put us both in a better place. Very subtle, but it helped me shrug it off. Both of our smiles were bigger after that. I was able to say "Ok, you have a great week, and so will I" with more confidence.

I thnk the week will be good for us. I am going to get a better grip on this PMA.

LeeP

[ May 14, 2002, 06:01 AM: Message edited by: LeeP ]