Quote: It is so weird to read up on your sitch and see so many similarities to mine. How old is your W?
W is 36. After 2 D2s were born, she took a year off her job to stay home with them. Then, couldn't get her job back, so went back to school (with dad's help). Now she's made a big career goal shift (decision made after meeting OM). I do think it has many elements of MLC, but there's other elements such as loneliness and little interaction with friends (outside of me).
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W just IM'd me a question: "Are you reading my emails, instant messages, keylogging or otherwise monitoring my computer usage?" I haven't been for some time, and I told her I'd read her email during May, so I told her "no, I am not". She says she wishes she could believe me. My gut response is "I don't give a flip if you believe me or not - I wish *I* could believe ANYTHING *you* say." I did end up saying I don't feel it's incumbent upon me to ensure she believes what I'm saying, and that I'm making no further efforts to decieve her as that will go nowhere in ensuring our marriage survives. I offered to discuss this further at some other time (since I'm at work and can't focus on this conversation). She says "i have all the answer i need, thank you." She won't continue the talk. I find the timing and shortness of this conversation very strange. She hasn't brought up anything about our R or the A since d-day. I have all sorts of thoughts going through my head, now. Dammit.
I'm going to see a movie with friends tonight. I don't know what I'm going to do when I get home. Every fiber of my being wants to go home, pull her aside, and talk about things. I'm still not sure I'm in the right frame of mind to really tell her what's on my mind. I also don't want to dominate the convo again.
