I am thinking ahead to a little to later in the week (Friday) when H leaves to see ow. Again. As I said yesterday, I do NOT want to agonize over the "will he or won't he" the whole week and a half he's gone. I told him that last night again. So how do I keep myself from getting sucked into it? (cause honestly it's still hard) Can I do it with sheer will because I don't want to feel that powerless again ? I figure I should make my plan now, before it happens. Options:

- Assume he "won't" and act accordingly until he gets back (what I've been doing).
- Let him know that if he doesn't, he might as well forget my phone number. (a bit harsh?) Or at the very least that it's really up to him to choose, but live with the choice.

That's about all the time I'm going to allow to think about this today. (I hope [Smile] ) Progress not perfection , right?

LeeP