Hi GH - thanks for the response. Going to quote ya, so I can touch on some of your points.
Quote: You claim to want to stop snooping yet you keep doing it, like you're some kind of victim or something. You claim to think it's a bad thing to do yet when I read about what you found out, you seem, on the whole, glad you snooped.
Hrm, never really felt I claimed I was a victim, because other than the fact my wife is cheating on me, I don't feel the victim here at all (and even then, I know I had my part to play in it). Will have to look back at my wording. Nobody's making me snoop except myself. I have to admit, I'm glad I know a few of the things, in a way, but only from the sense of control it gives me. False sense of control, yes, but a sense nonetheless. Good? No, that's why I need to stop both snooping and trying to control.
Quote: I guess my message is that it is bad to snoop, but even worse to deny the choice. YOU made the choice to snoop, so live with what happens because of it. Take charge of your life. Own that choice and accept it. If you don't want to do it again, then just don't, but don't act like some invisible force is making you read W's emails, cuz it ain't.
Still not sure where I implied it was anything BUT my choice. I make my choices and I live with them. I don't feel anyone or anything, invisible or otherwise, is making me read her emails. It's nothing more than an addiction. Ever been addicted to anything? I have a VERY non-addictive personality, and have had only a few addictions. This is one of them - not just the specific "reading W's email", but the need to know everything. Again, good? No, and I hate myself for doing it. But, addiction is addiction, and stopping is easier said than done. Please don't read into that that I'm making an excuse. Again, I know I make my own choices.
All in all, I'm just venting and mostly about myself, as well as journaling the choices I make, whether stupid or not.
Quote: On a more positive note, I love the new GAL attitude. Yes, go out and read. Get some RC time and use it to work on that which you feel will do the most for YOU.
Yeah, the plan of going out without a plan kind of sucked. We have JACK that open past 10pm around here. Bleh. Might have to travel into town. (Outside = mosquitos, so will only do that when I have a gallon of bug spray.)
Quote: You are surely on the roller coaster. You are making it more severe by snooping, but that's your choice.
(Outside = mosquitos, so will only do that when I have a gallon of bug spray.)