Here's the thing RC. You claim to want to stop snooping yet you keep doing it, like you're some kind of victim or something. You claim to think it's a bad thing to do yet when I read about what you found out, you seem, on the whole, glad you snooped.
I guess my message is that it is bad to snoop, but even worse to deny the choice. YOU made the choice to snoop, so live with what happens because of it. Take charge of your life. Own that choice and accept it. If you don't want to do it again, then just don't, but don't act like some invisible force is making you read W's emails, cuz it ain't.
On a more positive note, I love the new GAL attitude. Yes, go out and read. Get some RC time and use it to work on that which you feel will do the most for YOU.
You are surely on the roller coaster. You are making it more severe by snooping, but that's your choice.
Don't worry about everyone else here. You'll post more when you have time. Worry about you and the rest will take care of itself.