No Kent,

I am the one who is sorry. I hope you didn't think that I was directing anger at you.

Your H will choose his own path. You are losing days from your own life while you sit around watching and waiting for his next move.

Time to get on with it.

You were right. I had to "get on with it" and I sure did. I know you didn't mean I should do it that way. I had been the one avoiding the OR talk (for the first time). I felt trapped, so I burned it to the ground. I feel like I had a temper tantrum and beat up my teddy bear. Never mind that it was about to bite me. It still feels pretty awful. [Frown]

I didn't give him much chance to speak, but he said enough that confirmed my fears were founded.
He sounded pretty hurt by a lot I said, but took it all, was angry at himself (Sure that'll change soon enough). He thought I was right. It sure sucks to be right- I never want to be right about anything again.

It hurts me a lot more than him, probably.

LeeP