I was trying NOT to obsess but I was wanting to lay down boundaries for the first time and he broke the last straw last night.
He wasn't going to leave me alone last night- and it was the first time I felt absolute rage at his selfishness. He "needed" to talk. I started out by saying I was sorry, but I couldn't let him disrupt my life just becasue he had things he needed to say.
2 hours later, I told him to take what I suspect is all he wants from me(divorce)and get out of my life. (this hurt me unbelievably) I let him know in detail how I feel about how he has treated me. I told him that I have helped him be a lower person than he is. And that he's a quitter. I don't regret standing by this man, I regret that he's a fool.
He says he wants to act with integrity. I don't think he knows the meaning of the word. Or another one - honor.
I am sad. I am numb. I am angry. Mostly sad, though.
