you know gh i dont even know what i want, i am pretty depressed about this hole thing right now. i am so down that it has to come to this again. i will give her what she has asked me, i will not let her see my depression, but it is breathing and living in my sole right now and it is getting worse for me to handle. thank god i have kids to stick around for, that is what i am focusing my attion on. i have aloud myself to be in this state of mind, i just can not find away to get out of it. i will some how some way. i truly dont know what is in store for me in life. just some very hard times right now. sorry but this is starting to break me up pretty bad, i try not to let it but it is, its killing me slowly.
