wife finally talked to me: when i found out about her affair i lashed out pretty bad. i said some hurtful things to her, she has taken what i said (out of anger) and now believes everything i said. i told her it was out of anger and that i did not truly mean those things and she disagrees that people say what they truly mean when they are angry. catch 22, i dont know how to respond to that. she truly feels that i dont want her, i just cant live alone. i told her that is not true, i understand how it looks like that but its not true. she dont understand how i can say things and still want her after saying bad things about her. i felt so guilty for saying what i said, but i can not convince her its not what i truly meant. i am lost now as to what to do other then lay low with everything and just let it ride its course. i truly wish this to be over but its not, and i have a hard time with that. i really need to do what i know is right. leave her alone, she can not and will not let me fix this, i understand that now, stupid me huh, you guys have been telling me this for a long time now. it is going to be hard for me to do that, but i am going to try. i told my wife lastnight that i am taking off the gloves and dropping all my weapons that i do not want to fight anymore, that i will finally give her space and time to do what every she decides to do. i have made several bad mistakes that i hope are repairabul, we are now back to the beginning, but i will do things differently this time. she is alowing me the chance to do that, which is why i love her, she is not giving up on me yet and i will not give up on her either. PLEASE HELP ME STAY THE COURSE!!!!
