still here, w and i had a long discussion on friday about what she wants. i just listened, she still does not want a divorce, yet, she just needs more time. saturday and sunday were pretty good. monday she had to work, came home after work and told me she and d8 were going to her sisters for the 4th and i would see her on wednesday. so after that had no contact with her, me and son went to the local 4th fair and had a pretty good time. i met up with alot of old friends that i have not seen in a while. i think she is moving out today, but dont know as of yet. i also think she is only prolonging the r for what ever reason she has. i have come to the point that i can and will survive without her, that i can find happyness. i am not depressed that much about my failed marriage, just disapointed. she tells me things like she still loves me, that she would like to figure herself out to involve me in her life. she is so scared that i will right her off and not be her friend. she wants me in her life in a big roll but not as a husband. WTF does that mean? she is trying to set boundies on our new seperation, like no dating, total honesty, and communication about feelings. these are her boundies, but i am getting sick and tired of what she wants. its time i start doing what i want, but the biggest thing is my marriage and i can not have that so i will let it go. my rollercoaster has come to an end, i one month i went from wife talking to me again, moving home, to now leaving so she can find her way, i hear that all the time. its my time now.
