muddlethrough: you sure warned me huh. my thick head did not listen. such is life i guess. i dont know if i can change for the good. i tried and did not succeed. well i thought i tried. i emailed her a long email this morning, thinking she would not respond, but guess what (she did) and she seemed pretty sad and told me she was sorry for last night, that she is scared of what is to come of us just like i am. she told me that she thought that my email must have been pretty hard for me to write, and she thanked me for writing it. so i know she loves me, but it is not enough to make a marriage work. i understand that now. im not trying to be negitive, that is not what i am trying to do, i am just accepting the facts as they are now. i have to listen to what she said and believe her. she says its over, and that is that.
