yea i do feel i need to change. i thought i did until she came home and was not happy, i again became the fixer and controller. i thought i lost those traits. but i did not and could not, i tried to fix it and controll how she was feeling and blamed her for it. if you read my post in the last week you could tell i was falling back into those traits really hard and fast. she is right, i did not change and could not in regards to these behaviers. so the chips have fallen and now i have to live with my actions. i am somewhat sad, but not as bad as the first time i thought she was leaving. the last week i knew this was going to happen, i guess it is meant to be like she says. we are not good for each other.
