well it happened!! i self destructed. i lost it last night. why i could not listen to everybodys advice i dont know. i pushed and pushed my w last night to open up to me and tell me what was going on. boy did i not want to hear her side of the story, it was pretty ugly. i now no my marriage is over and i can not blame anyone but myself. i have been told by everyone in here to give it time and wait it out, i just could not listen, did not listen. that is the whole problem in my sitch, i am very controlling and need it to go my way or the highway. i have failed myself, my children, and especially my w. why couldnt i just listen to everyone that gave me so much great advice. i guess i am just not that way. anyway, thanks for the advice, be i could not listen. maybe if anything my personal journey in this forum, my failiers on the way i handled my sitch, will help someone else in thiers, please use me as an exemple of what not to do, listen to GH, and muddlethrough, and everyone else that gives advice. read my entire post and see what i did wrong and maybe right some of the time and learn from it and DONT DO AS I DID. my w is probably moving back out again and now i know its over, not because of her wrong doings but because of mine. take care everyone, stay focused and dont loose that, i did and i lost.
