Why do YOU choose to live in a $hit basket? Are you aware that you are handing all of YOUR personal power over to your W right now by blaming your W for your emotional/mental state? You have the power to put things in perspective - and you are choosing right now to see your marriage as over. This is the only reality here. So if this is YOUR choice, make sure you take 100% responsibility for it and don't blame it on your W. She doesn't have that power over you. Sure things could be better, and they were at one point or another - but you make the choice whether you're going to go outside now and find something to appreciate on your way home, or to continue to dwell on something to be angry, resentful and miserable about. If you have truly made this decision for yourself and are at peace with yourself for it - then you have nothing to be angry about. I suspect in some way you are feeling this way because you want to change the situation. You want your feelings to matter - to cause your W to respond to you in a certain way. What will ensue? A fight? Saying and possibly doing things you will regret? Take care of yourself before you do anything. Forgive yourself and let go of the hurt and blame - regardless of where you want to go with your M now.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
