you know GH i try and not talk so much, but everytime she says something, she looks at me with these puppy dog eyes and waits for me to say something, its confusing at hell. it just keeps hitting my in the face, i went and mowed the yard of the house she was staying in yesturday. while mowing the neighbor, (which is a friend of mine) came over and talked to me. he knows of our sitch, and told me about the guy she was seeing. gave me a detail what he looks like and everyting. i now am pretty sure i know who he is and i just want to go and really kick his a**, but i know it wont help the sitch any, but man he talks to me like hes my friend and how can i let him get away with it. it is all hitting me in the face and its all i can do to control myself. i truly think that her behaver the last several days is because she still is seeing him. maybe not, but thats what i feel. i think she lied to me once and she could lie to me again. i am pretty close to my breaking point, i love her very much, but everything is hitting me right in the face now and its hard to keep my love for her. i feel she chooses to be in this mood, or atleast to stay in this mood. when i am not wanting to talk to her, she comes to me and wants to talk about it. or at least get me to talk about it and then she just listens. i need to not let her do this to me anymore. its hard not too though.
