thanks for the comments gh, i do agree with you on some things you say. the one thing i have a hard time with is she is fine on the weekends, but almost everytime she returns to work on monday, she is completely different person. and yes i do EXPECT her to work on our marriage. it takes two to end a marriage and it also takes two to stay and save a marriage. right now its only one (me) that is totally committed to stay and save the marriage. i just dont get it, and i probally never will, (which will probally be the biggest blow to our marriage) you know i have forgiven her for her mistakes in this marriage, but she has not and WILL not forgive me for my mistakes. THAT WILL BE THE END OF OUR MARRIAGE. if she cannot forgive me for what i have done regarding our sitch. she would tell me before her A and leaving that i was always negitive and in a bad mood all the time, that i needed to snap out of it. well after all this, i have and i am always (for the most part) in a fun loving good mood, never negitive. but now she is the one negitive and in bad moods. i am expected to wait for her to come around, she couldnt wait for me she ran into the arms of another man. i can not continue on this current pace. weekends good, week days bad. cant do it man i can not do it.