your right gh, i have fallen to the (shes showing me attention) bug and forgetting all about my self improvements. thanks for reminding me!! i will go back to work and take what she give and leave it at that. (well try anyway) im only human and of course i want more, i think we all do. but i also know im getting all i can right now. just wish it was more (gretty you know), but thanks for putting me back on track. just trying to deal with her emotions, (hard for me to understand) but trying to deal with it.